This past weekend my father got a hotel room right on the beach for my mother's 60th b'day
Without her knowing we managed to plan on all us kids and her parents to be waiting in their room when they arrived. We also managed to get it worked out for her to have a 3 day weekend from work, her bosses were in on it and she never had a clue!!!
We were all so nervous that one of us would blurt out something that would give it away but we did it...without a hitch...pulled the whole thing and and surprised the buttons out of her!!!
It was a lovely weekend and I have tons of pics, so hard to know when to stop.
Did you all have a lovely weekend as well?
On a completely separate and personally pathetic note...
I found out today that my on going health issues are quite likely because of past water damage in our apartment.
It has been recommended by my doctor that we move. I have spent most of the day either crying or sleeping. I keep vacillating between despair over the loss of the home we love so much and shame for being so attached to something so unimportant in the grand scheme of things. No one has died, no one has cancer, these are things to be sorrowful over, not something inanimate, unliving, temporal. Sigh. I wallow in self pity one moment then despise myself the next for being so weak. It's just wood and nails and mold :-( What makes it our home is what we have filled it with, yes, the stuff that expresses my taste but more than that... the love, the music, the life WE live IN it, not the life IT has...because it doesn't have anything that isn't already us.
I don't know...so many things running through my head. None of this is helped by finding out I have new restrictions to my diet. (Jasmine...I know you feel my pain!!!!!!) I am being a big baby about it, and as I said, I'm quite ashamed. But I only found out this morning so give me some time and let me process it.
Also, those of you that are inclined to pray....please do so, to find an apartment that is within our price range, in this neighborhood (as a one car family I bike to work so being close to where I teach is rather a necessity) but a place new enough to not have a mold problem, with a washer and dryer and heating and AC, a garage and hard wood floors (not just for the aesthetics but because it's easier on my allergies) will be nothing short of a miracle.
We live in an older neighborhood, which we love, but with the age comes the mold. Also AC isn't as likely because of the older buildings and with it getting to 100 degrees for so much of the year, it's also kind of a necessity for someone with a thyroid problem that doesn't regulate body temperature.
It will literally take an act of God to be able to find all of these things together.
Also, please pray that this is the answer to the health issues. I admit to a certain amount of fear that we uproot ourselves, go through all the mess of moving and have it make no difference. Sigh. So many what ifs. It's really pathetic how untrusting I am, how fearful and worrisome I am. It's ugly and I hate it. But I can't seem to stop.
I don't like me very much right now.
I want to be gracious and graceful, not in a physical way (I'm too klutzy) but as in "full of grace". Patient, wise, unruffled, strong, peaceful, calm...the list could go on for days, I want to be these things, yet I seem to be the antithesis of all of them right now. Ew. Instead I'm freaking out, tail spinning, worrying, worrying, worrying. I'm a little disgusted, to be perfectly honest.
Ew. I need fixing.
Lovies and limeade,